this has been a good week....

this has been a good week....no kids for five days, and no kennedy for six, a vacation at the beach with some of my favorite people in the world, great food, volleyball and laughs, no housework, laundry, or cooking. but the best thing was today, the girls had dance practice all day downtown at the convention center, and i managed to get a concussion this weekend and still had blurry vision, dave took the day off and helped me, he drove me and the girls around and was very nice to hang out with, then tonight, we exercised as a family, walking two and a half miles, push-ups, sit-ups, etc... then a small dinner and visiting, then bed. dave and i reconnected in a new way this weekend, some of it was so very hard! i realize that i once again need to "re-invent" myself, not new people, just making myself into something else. i was really upset about it, because i feel like i am the one who has to change my whole life to "fit" in with others, i was so emotional, it could have been the concussion, who knows, but it was a smack in the face with reality, i wasn't too happy. but, today, i have come to accept it and to appreciate the good fun i had this weekend, and even though i am in for a huge life altering change, i am ready. i think. i was not sure if i would be able to get out of bed this morning, thinking of beginning my new life, but it wasn't too bad, except the double vision, which i hope is gone in the next few days, or i will need a doctors appt. and i don't want to rack up any more bills. i miss being connected to friends, they seem to fade away and pop back up again. i will be patient and maybe more proactive in not being isolated. i am tired and sore tonight, but i have a sense of contentment that i haven't had in a long time, so on that note....good-night i am going to bed.