today i want to start a new page

today i want to start a new page in my life. i want to have confidence, and happiness and joy in the things in my life that are good and healthy. like my kids and my friends. i want to be able to notice all the positive things going on around me and let go of the yucky ones. i want to clean my house today, maybe it will help. i want to take my kids to their dentists appt. and not have any cavities, but if they do, not to stress about it. i want to watch tynin at dance class and not compare myself to the other moms. i want to make a great dinner and sit around with my family doing "highs and lows" and just enjoying each other. i want to add more weight to my barbell when i lift tonight and not be sore. i want to not fear the friends that i have and feel like they are keeping things from me. i want to eat what i want for just a day and not gain a pound. i want to not change a dirty diaper today. i want to walk to the mailbox and get a check for tons of money from a longlost relative in zimbabwe. i want to not feel tired and not act that way either. i want to play a board game with my kids and not care who wins. but, i do want to play yahtzee with dave and kick his behind. i want the bag of m&m's to refill itself so when the kids ask if they can have some i won't feel like i only had two. i want the dishes to load themselves into the dishwasher and start. i want to be happy today. that is why i posted pix of my favorite things in the world, to remind myself that i have great things in my life, and to dwell on those.