why

did i ever tell you that christians are my favorite people?
did i ever tell you why?
they are always there to tell you how many ways to get to jesus,
how they know the "right" way.
how their god, doesn't approve of this
doesn't act like that.
how their god is so mighty,
but never open their eyes to see his power.
how their god heals the sick,
but discount healings of today.
how their god loves the sinner
but how they themselves can't see past the sin.
how their god cleanses people and makes them pure
but they are not accepting of people
how their god will do anything to love his people
as long as it fits in their schedules
and for sure if it isn't late at night.
i love that christians have all the cute sayings and stupid bumper stickers
but their actions will never replicate those.
i am in awe of the power of worship on the enemy,
but even more in awe that christians always have a time limit to praise
i love that church should be for the hurt and wounded,
but everyone only talks about their neighbors problems, not their own
why do christians feel like they are not christians if they have pain and fears?
if christians only knew that god loves them, that god doesn't have a time frame like they do, that god does heal, that god does love, that god adores the worship from his people, that god wants us to tell him our hurts and fears, and that he desires to heal us from them. that god is powerful, and he gives his authority to his own, but they choose to walk away from it or deny what is handed to them. why is it so hard to believe that what god said in his word, is the truth. why be a christian? what is the draw? to be shallow, to say hurtful things just because you don't understand? to put god not only in a box, but in a box, locked in the cellar. to be able to say that you went to "service" for an hour and worshipped god? god deserves worship all the time, not just an hour once a week, god deserves to know that we believe, that because he died for us the least we can do his show that complete kind of love. god deserves our trust, that even if things are weird or different doesn't mean that they are wrong or bad. god deserves to partner with us in times of hurt and pain. he wants to be there, and i believe that he wants us to be there for each other. i want to follow christ, to believe in god and all he has done for me, i just don't want the title of "christian" cuz if you ask me, they don't have a fucking clue.