new house new beginning.....whatever

so, due to a really fucked up refinance that we took out over two years ago that came with all sorts of hidden costs, that totally drained our bank accounts, that have made it impossible to live a normal life, and now with gas costing us over 600 dollars a month, we are now foreclosing on our home of 15 years, the only home our kids have known, and moving to the other side of town, to a rental home. now, don't get me wrong, i am glad that we are moving close to the kids school, and our church, and it is a four bedroom home, and it is going to be 1,000 dollars a month cheaper, and save us a ton of gas, but the issue for me, is the packing. i spent over five hours going through boxes of notes and pictures from paige and leia and the rest, i cried and got scared and got mad and got sad and got happy and got every other emotion that exists, and had to throw a lot of it away which made me feel like i was ripping out my soul. i am hoping that this move will bring dave and i some healing, that we will be able to send our kids to camp next year, and that my stress level will go way down, that is what i am hoping. we are moving june 20th, so i only have three weeks to pack, which is scary, but i set little goals each day and so far i have met them. we also have two litters of puppies right now, because our boy inside dog got outside and got the two female dogs pregnant, and they each had 5 puppies, so yes, moving, and 13 dogs most of whom i must find homes for before the 20th. we are moving across the street from clovis west high school, and the northeast police station which dave is hoping to transfer to in december. thankfully, i opted out of doing summer school, or i would be a mess. things are rough, i feel so disconnected, i will let you all know soon, how it is going. oh, my play at school went awesome, i got pictures, and we had over 230 people there, we got 2 standing ovations, and the kids were so proud. i will try to post them when i find the rechargeable batteries to get my camera back on to download the pictures. miss you all, and at least we will be at family camp, thanks to grandma! let me know how you are all doing. that would be nice