dear god please.....

dear god please....
let me sleep
or at least let me sleep without having memories
let my body be free of pain
or at least allow me to be able to care for my family
let me trust
or at least let me allow people into my heart
let me love
or at least let me be able to feel it
let me understand
or at least let me not frustrate over ignorance
let me be a person who is giving
or at least let me be aware of people's needs
let me have faith
or at least let me have hope
let me always seek wholeness
or at least let me not continue to break
let me feel comfortable in my own skin
or at least let me not cringe when i glance in a mirror
let me laugh
or at least let my feel heart lighter
let me cry
or at least let me mourn
i pray oh god....
that you can heal me
complete me
use me
i need a miracle right now
i need to believe in
myself
in you
in others
in something