i dont even know who i am anymore

i don't even know who i am anymore. today has been one of those days where i simply cannot find a reason for my exsistence. i know that doing the right thing is sometimes hard, but isn't it still the right thing? i only hope that i am able to keep up appearances and to get the mundane things done around here. i look in the mirror and see an emptyness and a gaping hole, i don't even recgonize myself. what am i doing?! who am i?! today i feel so much pain and sorrow, and like the whole world is closing in on my head. and i feel utterly powerless to do anything about it. i wish i could climb into bed, pull the covers up tight and cry. at least tonight survivors on.