so i have been told i need to blog more

so i have been told that i haven't updated my blog often enough, so i am here writing an update. not sure what to write. my life is unbelievably crazy and busy right now. the kids are in school, and doing ok, i have the soccer, the volleyball the cheerleading, and zed is running for student council and the vote is tomorrow. i am nervous for him. i am hoping that it won't be too traumatic if he doesn't win. i baby sit three days a week. i am struggling with internal issues, they just seem to come at the worst times, they sneak attack me and ruin my sleep patterns and mental health. i am working endlessly on my marriage. it has seen some improvements, some things still need work, some are a work in progress and some just are great. i miss seeing my best friend everyday like i did in the summer, that is the hardest part of fall. but, i am learning new things about myself everyday. some days i want to hide under the covers and cry, and some days i am ready to hit the world head on and conquer it. today i feel very old and very tired. i hope that all of my friends are doing well. i will try to do better on updating the blog and letting everyone know how i am doing. i hope you all do the same.