to shut my eyes
to hear only my heartbeat
to find the darkness
the constant companion
that could hide me
that could shield me
from the craziness that has
become my life
to not feel
to not hurt
to not yearn
to not cry
to not care
i seek shelter
darkness
emptiness
nothingness
solitude
to be far away
from this....
just let me shut my eyes
and let them stay closed
forever....