happy birthday to me.

happy birthday to me! i just had a very good day! this past week as been a time of loss, of pain of lonlieness. there were days i didn't think i could get out of bed! i cannot tell you how many tears i shed this past week! i knew my birthday was coming, and i wanted nothing to do with it. i must say that this year i enjoyed myself today, a feat i didn't think possible. my husband took the day off and he was a lot of fun today. like old times. we cleaned the house, and went to lunch, did some shopping, picked up the kids and two friends, had ice-cream, took the kids to pizza, dropped them off at church, and went by shannon's and then to tahoe joes and then shopped a little more and then a movie. got home after my birthday had ended, tired but content. i needed today! i needed to laugh, and feel like someone was there for me. i needed to hear my kids laugh and hold hands with dave. i needed to feel like i was special and that when someone said they loved and cared about me that they meant it. i needed today. so, happy birthday to me. hope this year is special!