easter week

well, it is easter week. yippee! can't even begin to tell you how shitty it has been already. i decided to write this update so those of you that those of you who have called me could know that i am still alive and kicking. no offense to anyone, but i haven't been much in the talking mood this week, and i am not trying to dog anyone, it just takes too much energy. sorry. the week started off with a bang, went to the doctor and had lots of labs done. it was the big cancer scare, but the tests came back today and were ok. that's good. but last night, i took dave to dinner and we had the talk that if i did have cancer i would not do any preventive care, like surgery or chemo, nothing. when he asked me why, i flat out said, i am alone now, i don't want to be sick and alone. and told him it would be my way out. but, lucky for him, i don't have cancer, and i now have no way out. then there is drama with my brother and his wife, that i frankly do not have any desire to deal with. it started because of things their kids did to mine at my parents house and i confided in my mom, big mistake, now they are constantly calling and wanting to yell and bitch at me. i don't want this this week. today, was a day of highs, with the test results being good, and then lows with dave getting an exposed nerve in his tooth and being in agony, the dentist is scheduling him for a emergency root canal in the morning and told him to choose either pain pills or alcohol, but dave has chosen both, i have never ever seen him take so many shots in my life, and the last time we went through this tooth crap he nearly died and i called 911. so, i am not too happy right now as he is puking his guts out in the bathroom and i am scared he will stop breathing again. then my dad called and apparently my mom got scammed today and gave out all of their personal info over the phone and some guy has already attached himself to two of their credit cards and is probably opening more as we speak, and dave couldn't take care of it since he was in pain. i am so tired and so emotionally overwhelmed right now, and do not know how to set boundaries at all. guess i should have finished that book! well, hopefully soon i will start answering the phone again. hope everyone is having a great week.