back from sherwood!

so, i went to sherwood this week. just a couple of days. i almost didn't get to go, health concerns, but convinced the doctor that it would be more restful than running my household. literally got the green light an hour before i was to go up. so very glad i did! i did get rest, and i actually asked some of the sherwood girls to pray and that was amazing! feeling a little better, have a few more doctors appts. this week to figure out the final diagnosis. not as worried as i was after getting prayer. one of the best things that occured this week in sherwood, was janice took paige to the waterfall. it was a very healing, touching moment, in brought me to tears. i love her and all that she did and is doing for me! it was great. and then i couldn't be up as much, and it was great watching her play with janice! she makes me laugh and she made janice laugh. and she even said hi to emily, which was so fun. leia spent a lot of time up, helping me to rest, she is letting janice in and it is nice to have my old leia back. the two of them helping me with prayer and memories, is awesome, super tag-team! the campers were amazing once again. one female, who i took smoke breaks with had a super crush on me, and it was fun to hang out and hear how great "my rack" was. seriously, it was funny! the talent show was so funny! i am going to go up probably for the last time this summer on monday, it is one of my sherwood kids birthdays and i need to celebrate with her, she means a lot to me, and she needs this badly. and besides, jaime is going to be there! things are still unraveling in my life, and i have learned so much about grace, hope and love. i have trusted god, and he is faithful in showing me that i am worthwhile and deserve joy, happiness and peace. god is good! hope you are well! miss you!

things are still amazing!

so things are still amazing with me. really hard, but amazing. i am still in awe of how much my life has changed in just one month! i look back to a month ago, and don't even know who i was anymore. that is the truth. i am learning so much each day, i hope that i continue to learn even more. i think that the hardest thing for me is peoples perception of me, which i am learning really should have no hold over me. i am learning that i am who i am because god created me to be this way, and most people that i run across have no idea where i came from. i am trying to not come across so abrasive on my first encounter with me, trying to let my guard down, and let people in. that is such a new concept for me. i am excited because i am planning to go help with half the week in sherwood. dave just informed me that we have car issues so i am going to have to work around that. which is ok. i also, had a really rough night with paige last night, and am feeling crappy today, but i talked to my doctor and if it isn't better tomorrow, he will run some tests. i also got to hear my bud, janice preach today, and i was impressed with her exuberance in the word. and her understanding and her ability to make it real to people. i am once again having fun with leia, which i sorely missed. its nice to hang out and laugh, and talk and pray. she is awesome. i am still feeling very inadequate trying to figure out facebook, i think i am just too darn old. oh well, it is something to do. kids have stuff daily as school is less than 2 weeks away for them. i have longer until work starts which is nice, trying to get back into the routine may take me awhile. i just wanted to check in and write, because i need to be thankful daily for what god is doing, and part of that is reminding myself to write, so i can look back on it. hope you are all well, hope that the heat is not depleting you, oh....yesterday there was the most beautiful picture of my friend, jaime barker, i mean she looks so radiant, and i hope that her campout was amazing, with her "kids". check it out if you can, if i was at all computer savvy i would upload it or download it or whatever and put it on here. take care of you!